Good Bye May & Hello June

Today is the last day for May, through out this whole month, i've been experiencing both, the goods and the bad. May, had also brought me joy and happiness. It centinly had brought pain and heartbreak to me, being hurt by your trusted friend and losing your love ones.



Today, i woke up early. It was raining, once the rain stopped, i started "melap" both of my cars, my brother also woke up early, we both started washing our car once the rain had stop and fortunately it did. Right after we both finished washing our car, i told my mom that we're going to Tutong for a visit at my sister's place. Its been a while we hadn't been there. Kinda miss the village enviroment.. At first we're planing to go together with my brother but something came up, unfortunately he couldn't join us therefore its just us, me and my mom. We left the house around 11AM this morning, arrived at my sister place around 11.45AM.



The weather in Tutong was just fine unlike here in Bandar Seri Begawan, it was raining here since this morning but the advantage is its cold, not that hot like the usual day, especially around noon, gosh, "hangat banget". Once we arrived at my sister's place, started cit chatting, i assumed there's a lot of catching up to do between her and my mom, since they're really close. My sister's husband was also home, waiting for us. We stayed there for 3-4 hours. Left my sister house around 3PM but didn't went straight home.



We made a stop at one of our closes cousin, We called her right before we stop by at her place, to make sure that she's home and yes she is home. Lucky us. ehehe. At first we were lost, damn, susah nak look for her house since i'm not that familiar with the road in Tutong so, i'm a bit clueless with the roads in Tutong but thankfully we managed to arrived at her place safely. We stayed there for 2-3 hours, left their place around 5.30PM and went straight back home, arrived home at 6.15PM.



With Love: Amirul

Damn Headec

Again, first of all i would like to apologise for not being able to update this blog today, i'am having a very painful headec, may be it's because of lack of sleep and rest, i had been working so hard through out these two month, experiencing the ups and down. May be the time had time for sickness to approach me, like my follo colleagues, they already pay their dues during the internship and i haven't yet, now it is my turn, aiyo.. damam saya ni..

I will be updating this blog sometime by tomorrow, please keep on stopping by, insyallah, i'll be posting my today's activity on tomorrow's post. That would be all for now, i'm heading off to bed now, really need my rest.

With Love: Amirul

My Cardiologist days....

It all went down today, where all the knowledge and experiance is put to the test, where the Cardiology medical board put up a test for an evaluation where they want to see, how much have we all (the interns) have learned so far during our internship period.

Since this morning, all of us we just not in the mood to for any unnecessary questions, i guess we were all was just exhausted after having to work nonstop and at the same time, having to prepare for our final year examination which is just around the corner. Time past by without we noticing it right?

I arrived this morning around 7am, ever since this morning, i was just NOT in the mood, where i'm used to be excited, enthusiastic, competitive, brave, helpful and willing to learn.. Today's different, all i want was NOT to be bothered by any body and having not to see and hearing people's winding about their phatatic life. I know that is not a really nice thing to do and as a Health Officer, i should be treating people and increasing their quality of life. I don't know what was wrong with me this morning. For my follo collegue, i apologise for my mean behavior, i was just in bad mood. As i assumed you guys are too since we all are in that bad mood.

I don't know what had happened to us where all the negativity came from, we barely speak to each other after a very long and exhausting day. When we sat all together, all we do is just sat and never talk to each other, some even felt a sleep when we get together. I miss the old days where we got to joke around etc,but now........................ I guess it will be the same when we all go back to the College for our revision week, we're stressing out, now we're more stress out with the exams and everything.

Today also, all of us had our Medical board test, where we were given a test in each clinic as i mentioned earlier, thankfully I managed to PASS my test. I managed to get as the 3rd highest mark in Cardiology but i also would like to congratulate Mohidin & Zuvita for making the two highest mark in Cardiology, i envy you guys in a healthy way ah but i also felt sorry for Daniel & Hamizah for not able to pass their Cardiology test, they didn't pass only by one mark, one more mark then they pass but due to that one missing mark, they didn't pass but its okey guys, i bet you can do this final exam much better, we all would work harder than ever to make it, and hopefully we all can stay all together to the finish line.

With Love: Amirul

Getting ready

First of all i would like to apologise to you all for not posting my today's activity, the reason why am i not posting anything is because i'am getting ready for my Cardiology test which will be heald tomorrow, i'am not sure what time will the test be but i'am sure it is going to happen sometime tomorrow therefore, i'am going to study now, so far i haven't prepare anything other than hanging out, but i guess the time has come to open my notes and be a book worm for a while.

With Love: Amirul

Not that happy with..........

Today wasn't a very good day for me, with all the unnecessary phone call, text message, all the humiliations, stupid jokes, with all of this, i still don't know how did i get through it. But thankfully i managed to overcome it and managed to work properly and efficiently despite a few heartbreak that's been cause by a friend who is really close to my heart. I won't say what that friend said to me that disrespect how i feel, but i'am going to say this, i won't mind if that friend doesn't respect me or making fun of me, but please do respect the person who passed away and was really closed to my heart. Where are they sense of heartness and feeling? Are they even human for not being like one?

You guys musta have tons of questions on what really goes out today, it all started when we're talking about what type of person do we prefer to date, each one of us stated the caterer that we're looking for at person, it was all a joke but when it was my turn, i said i'am not ready to date yet due to some personal reason, there's is one friend of mine said to me "do you even date? nda ku pernah melihat pun, cemanakan usulnya, lawakan?" in a joke kind of way but the respond that i gave him is this "i felt in love with this girl when i was 16, we were close, unfortunately she past away already after having an accident when we were both 18 years old" guess what did they react once i said that, they all laugh and acted like i'm kidding, i tried to hide my feeling since they thought that i'am just making up stories but i'am NOT, they kept on laughing, and i just couldn't stand it no more, with anger, i said to them "if you don't believe me, fine by me, but at least you respect they person who i personally love and very closed to my heart, i'am dead serious now"

They did try to calm me down but i just kept on walking away, away from their stupid jokes, i couldn't take it no more, what kind of person laugh of someones misery? I certainly won't do that if i found out all about my friend pain or what is he or she is going through. I would be there for them and not acting like a jerk. They tried to talked me into it but i kept on ignoring them, enough is enough, there are times when to make jokes but this is just to much, no more.

It was already past working hours, i left the clinic, and both of them tried to make up, i just couldn't until one of them said to me "Luan jua eh, nda mau melayan" and my respond is " you know why i'm so pissed at you, don't remember, try and rethink" right after that i kept on walking away and went straight back home. While i was on my way home, i was feeling upset, anger and humiliated, i tried to release my anger by driving really fast, i meant really-really fast, i almost die in an accident, thankfully my break is working properly and managed to avoid hitting another car and risk some body's life, to the person who i almost hit today, sincerely i apologise.

With Love: Amirul

Being a Cardiologist.

Today was my first day being as a Cardiologist, working in Cardiac Centre. I woke up this morning around 6AM, drove my self to the Hospital around 7AM, before going to the clinic, i made a quick stop at the cafteria for a cup of cofee, i was join by Zul and Uncle Tan Guna, he belanja me and Zul for a tea. Right after that, we all left to where we are assignt.

But what is Cardiac Center?

Cardiac centre is a one stop service designed to help patients access to specialist expertise, personalized patient care and streamline the various cardiac investigation for the diagnosis of the heart diease, provided under one roof.

But what is Cardiac diease?

Cardiac diease is one of the leading cause morbidity and mortality in this country. Hence the need to develop comprehensive cardiac diagnostic facilities for our population.

Type of services:

1. Electrocardiogram (ECG) - a test in which several electronic sensors are place on the body to monitor electrical activity associated with the heart beat. This is an important test to diagnosis heart attack or heart beat problems.


2. Enhocardiogram (ECHO) - a method of studying the heart's structure and function by analyzing sound waves reflected from the heart and recorded by an electronic sensor placed on the chest.


3. Trans-Esophageal Echocardiogram (TEE) - is a test that analyzes sound waves reflected from the heart. The sound waves are sent through a tube-like device inserted in the mouth and passed down the esophagus (food pipe) which ends behind the heart.


4. Stress Test - This test helps doctors assess blood flow to heart, though coronary arteries in response to exercise, usually walking, at varied speeds and for various lengths of time on treadmill. Also called exercise test or treadmill test.


5. Dobutamine Stress Echocardiogram - is a test that helps to diagnose heart diease with the help of ultrasound images or an E.C.H.O. Medication (Dobutamine) is used to increase the heart rate and show how the heart works under stress.


6. 24 hour Holter Monitering - a portable device for recording heartbeats over a period of 24 hours or more to diagnose heart beat problem. It is for both In and Out patient who having a frequent palputation.


7. 24 h ours Blood Pressure Monitering - a device that is portable and attach to the patient body for recording the patient blood pressure over a period of 24 hours or more. Helpful in monitering the control of blood pressure and adequacy of treatment.


8. Trans-telephonic ECG monitering - a tras-telephonic monitor sends the ECG signals from the patient to a reciever at the cardiac centre using telephone. This test is useful in diagnosing heart beat problems.


9. Tilt Table Test, an autonomic system - this test can help determine the cause of fainting. During this procedure, blood pressure and heart rate are monitored at first lying down on a table, then the table is position. This procedure only took around 10 minutes where the patient will be given a Carative Massage where at the same time, the patient Blood pressure, ECG and Heart rate is being moniter carefuly.


10. 6 Minutes walking test - this test is person's walking capasity over a 6 minute period. This is another test to assess the physical fitness of the caridac patient.
11. Pacemaker Implantation and follow up - pacemaker is a surgically implanted electronic device that helps regulate the heartbeat, usually this type of procedure is done in the CCU (Critical Care Unit) & in the Radiology department.
12. Event Loop Recorder Implantation - a surgically implanted electronic device that records heart beat for a year or more.Useful in diagnoseing heart beat problems.
13. Clinical Consultation with Cardiologist - an appointment with Cardiologist as a review in a certain area such as the CCU, Cardiac Clinic, Referral Clinic etc.
14. Cardiac Screening Program which includes Executive Screening and Family Screening - this is to screen for heart beat diease in high risk group patients for early detection of heart disease; to reduce cardiac morbidity; and to save lives.
15. Cardiac Rehabilitation Program - sum of activities and interventions required to ensure the best possible physical, mental and social conditions that patients with chronic or post-acute cardiovascular diease may, by their own effort, preserve or resume their proper place in surgery & lead an active life. This Rehabilitation centre is located at the Sport Complex, next to the R.I.P.A.S Hospital.

Those are all of the type of service that Cardiologist had to offer for all Cardio patient. Patient who have complication with their heart. The requirement to be a Cardiologist, having an 3 'A' levels or 4 'O' level in Science subjects. Do you think you can be a Cardiologist? Even i, my self have doubt weather i'am good Cardiologist.

With Love: Amirul

Sleepy eh, but worth wokeing up for

It's Sunday morning, waking up early was not in my plan at all, but today's different, i woke up around 6.30am this morning, have to attend a wedding in Limbang Sarawak. It was my first cousin daughter wedding day. My mom had already left yesterday. She spent a night there with some of my closes family members. Actually i was planing to stay over there for a night but due to the late working hours and exhaustion i had yesterday, it is better for me to just stay home to recover. I really need to recover from exhaustion. I staid home even though it was Saturday night. I'am just sooo tired yesterday, i crash on my bed as soon as i reached home, woke up around 8pm.

What did i do last night?

Nothing much, i just watch the final of Akademi Fantasia where Stacy, a constant from Sabah won the competition. Alright enough about AF, want to more about it? Just click Mr Manager or Klubbkidd for a complete review. Alright back to my today story. Since i'm just alone, so i invited some of cousin to attend the wedding with me but they don't want to. But instead they had asked me to come to the wedding with them. I said "YES" to them immediately after they made the offer cause i prefer to be drive than drive my self. ehehe. I drove my self to their house, from their house, we all started moving. We have to leave early to avoid traffic jam, as you guys know how bad the traffic is in Kuala Lurah. Plus, today is Sunday, i'am sure there's a lot of people going to Limbang to shop or go back home to Temburong for a visit.

Once we got there, thank god, the traffic was good, no traffic at all, all car are being Que properly and the immigration people had certainly did their job smoothly. Keep up the good work guys. Right after we finished dealing with the immigration thing, we started moving, don't want to be late eh, the weather was just fine for me tho it was raining this morning but not a heavy rain, it is just a very light rain (Hujan barai-barai nya org Brunei) . We reached our destination around 8:30AM, starts chilling out with the bride's family. There's a lot of catching up to do since we hadn't been able to kept in touch for a while now but all kerinduan had been cured. :). While we were busy talking and telling story after story to each other, to know what is going on each other's life, it was 11AM and all the invited guest seems to start arriving.

We all left the house and went to the kem to our lunch but before we had our lunch, we have to wait for the bride's family to 'Beziarah' with all the guest. But there is one thing different from our Bruneian culture, the beziarah session have to wait for the groom to arrive for it to begin, then right after the groom had arrived and 'Bersanding' with the bride, the newlyweds had to leave the ceremony, the bride had to go back with the Groom, for another 'Bersanding' session at the groom's place. Right after that the 'Berziarah' session begin, followed by the DOA and lunch time. Right after that the newlyweds finished 'Bersanding" at the groom's place, they have to come back to the bride's house again for "Majlis Malam Berambil-ambilan".

We left the ceremony around 2.30PM, and this time my mom followed us home. We are all exhausted, some even felt a sleep while on the way back home. As for me, again i crush right after i got back home, woke up around 7PM and starts blogging. :) I think i slept for 3 hours after i got back home from the trip. During the trip, i managed to take some pictures. Here they are:-

With Love: Amirul

From Ortho To Cardio

Today was my last day being an intern in the Orthopedic department. Through out the this entire week i have learned so much all about the bones and mucles. Not only i have learn tons of medical theory about it but i've got to practise a few medical procedures as such installing a P.O.P for patient with a broken bone. And i also got the chance to witness a tons of medical procedures that are only been practised by Ortho Surgons. Gosh, being a surgon is for sure is much more COOLER than being a Medical doctor. Being a surgon is like you have the the power to cut and fix people's bones and do amazing surgery on the bones. But being a surgon is not easy, the requirement is soo standard, having an A on Anatomy & Physiology, together with a perfect marks on Bio-Science Medical practised. Gosh, i wish i'am good enough to be a surgon one day but i won't be a Ortho surgon, i would love to be a Cardio Therasic Surgon. A heart surgon is the one that all medical officer dreamed about as a specilty.

Back to my story as an intern in Ortho department. From now, i would like to admit that working in Ortho clinic is so freakin' busy with all the long que patient. The apponintment set up and reviews every single day except for Friday and Sunday. The week days was just crazy cause some time nda g temakan our lunch and sometime ah, paksa overtime just because having to see and examined tons of patient, especially on Monday and Saturday.

Today i was assigned as Dr.Phillip intern, helping him with all the patient appointment and at the same time, he taught me all about acellocities, anginatitis, cellulaties with its treatment, investigations, plan and does it require minor or a major surgery. Today me & Mr Phillip had seen at least 28 patient, excluding those who have been admitted in the wards, i don't know how much patient did i diagnosis and treat thought out my stay in the Orthopedic department. Miss count ku sudah bah.. kepisan eh.

Here also, i would like to share a story of one patient of our (both me & Mr.Phillip). He had a broken bone on his right arm, with a single bone fracture that's been totally heal a week ago and we had removed his P.O.P since his X-ray had shown that the bone is totally heal. But this boy, right after we removed his P.O.P in the morning. That afternoon, he went to play football with his friends and broke his right arm again. So stupid eh kanak-kanak masa ani. His parents took him back to the hospital to check on him and again we're as his Medical officers, had found out that this time not only he broke one of the bones, he broke both of his right arm bones that require a minor surgery to straighten the bones back. The surgery is a success but due to this boy activeness, instead of the bone getting straight, it went the opposite way, the bone that we joint back is bend and needed to be straighten back again if he want to have his normal hand back. If is his okey with the flaws that he have now, we won't operate, but that is all up to him. But i must say, once me and Dr.Phillip explained what happened to his hand and what we needed to do for his own sake and quality of life, he cried like a baby.. poor boy but his the one who created the mess, deal with your own stupidity boy. You're stupidity and ignorance is what made you this way, you might to rethink your action the next time when you decide to do something stupid and irresponsible. We arranged the surgery for him this Monday, it is up to him to come tomorrow for an admission in Ward 8 or not.

The moral of the story is? You think about it guys..

All i'm trying to say to you people out there is, when your medical officer told you not to this and that, just follow the advise cause they are doing their best on making you guys (the patient) to get well soon and don't have to come to the hospital often for a review. Tahan biskita kan sakit kan? Padar kali ah patah tulang ani ah.. kan merasa? I don't think so you're going to like it.

This Monday morning, i will be continuing my internship in Cardiology Clinic, finally something that i'm good at. I'am really looking forward on what's going on in Cardiology Clinic. Tomorrow, i'am going to a Limbang for a wedding, pictures and details will be post tomorrow.

With Love: Amirul

A Close Deal

Today, i woke up early around 8.30am. Why so early you asked? it's because today is the day where i'am closeing a deal to buy a brand new car. As i told u you guys that i have to decide between two of my favorite cars which are, a Ford Escape and Ford Focus. At first i wanted to get the Escape but since they haven't shift any new model for an Escape model like the one that's been released in the USA a few days ago. The brand new Escape Hybird is still not available in Brunei for the next couple of months therefore i'm gonna have to go with the brand new 2008 Ford Focus model.

I closed the deal this morning with my cousin. The Dealer have been kind enough to give me such a resonable deal. She decress the prize of the car from B$32,000.00 to just B$21,000.00. That means half of the original prize and the monthly is only B$350 per month. I had asked her is my car going to have a full bodykid? fortunately she said yes, she's going to make sure that my car have a COMPLETE bodykit WITHOUT any extra charges. Luckly me ha? By the way, the color of my Ford Focus is going to be a Metalic Black since they had sold out all Pure White Ford Focus. But Black is also nice, exclusive and luxery. The car will be release within a week. Looking forward to it.

2008 Ford Focus With Full Bodykit

The Interrior Design

With Love: Amirul

What the ???? Did Idol Get It Wrong?

DAVID COOK TOOK THE AI CROWN FROM JORDAN SPARKS BUT.......................

David Cook's Wins The American Idol For 2008

What the hell happened?

As Secrest's announced early of the tonight's finale, that a record breaking amount of votes was cast in last night. Over 96 Millions of votes was cast in by the American Viewers last night for the two contender, 56% of the votes belong to Cook's and only 44% went to Archuleta. I feel it is soo unfair since Archuleta is the one who stood out during last night show. He should be the ONE the American Idol. Has American got it wrong or is just Cook's luck on winning the competition?

What ever it is, eventhough Cook's had won the competition but the real deal is to survive on music industry, especially with all the heavy weight artists around such as Alicia Keys, Mariah Carey, Kelly Clarkson, Carrie Underwood etc. Only some of the American Idol past winner had been able to stay and maintain their popularity, some just disappear right after the competition's over. Could Cook stay on top as the previous Idol winners? Only time will tell. Judging from last night performance, Archuleta have an adventage to maintaining his popularity and could overcome the AI winner it self, as the same thing happened to the previous idol winner who got beaten down interm of popularity and record sales. Who am i preferring to? do you guys remember Ruben & Clay Aiken? Ruben Studded won the AI back in 2003 but hadn't been able to beat Clay's in term of popularity and record sale. Could the same thing happen to Cook? Could history reapert it self?

That is all for today...

With Love: Amirul

American Idol The Finale!!!

David Cook

VS

David Archuleta

Who Will Be The Next American Idol?
Find Out The Results Tomorrow At 6pm On Star World.
Live From Nokia Theater In Hollywood Los Angeles.

The Cook served up a good mix of songs but he couldn't out-sing The Diva who swept the floor and blew him away. That's how the finale of American Idol came across to me. Vocally, Archuleta was technically polished and flawless. Lovely, lovely tone. Cook, on the other hand, was blazing hot in delivering emotionally charged performances. Lovely, lovely feel. Both were triumphant.

For the first time ever in Idol history, both finalists are already bona fide stars in their own right. At this point in the competition, it really doesn't matter who wins the title. Both will go on to make records that will sell millions. Both have legions of fans.It's really a matter of which fan club votes more.

If there are fence-sitters, they'll be swayed by what the judges had to say. And Simon Cowell gave the night lock, stock and barrel to The Diva. That more or less sealed the deal.So, who do YOU think will be the next American Idol?

With Love: Amirul

Exhaustion hits

First and foremost i would like to apologise for the late update. I was having such a busy day yesterday. It all started in the morning where i started my internship in Ortho Clinic. I'am no longer working on shift but office hours which means from 7:45am till 12pm and from 1:30pm till 4:30pm. Though i'am not happy with the crazy hours but that how it is. Too bad for all Medical Officers that have to work in Office Hours. (including the interns) But despite the tiredness me and my friends had decided to watch a movie right after we've got back from work. Gila, the movie that we're about to watch was Narnia & Price Caspian. I personally booked 6 tickets to watch the movie but unfortunately four of us showed up, Zul, myself, Ebee and Yuki, the other two, haiya.. they overslept and miss the movie. Zul fetch us up a bit late, ia pun overslept katanya, but luckily he managed to brought us to The Mall as fast as he can. Guess what? he did, we only miss 3% of the movie and arrived safely in Gadong.



The movie was okey and understandable as far as the story telling but one thing really bothered me the most, the people sitting behind me is so damn annoying loud and kept on kicking my chair. Rasa kan ku teriaki bah org ah.... ia fikir ia saja kali kan melihat movie atu.. org membayar kali ah utk melihat.. be cooperative lah. so stupid but i did enjoy the movie.

Right after watching the movie, we went to McDonald to get something to eat, while we're on our way there, we bumped into some of us colleague, cruising around Gadong, we said hello to them and asked them how was their first day working at the clinic. So far, the response are good but the tiredness thing, it's going to be around for a while. ehehe. As soon as we reached McDonald, we started ordering our meals. I ordered a Spicy Chicken McDulex which taste so damn good. I can't remembered what did my Zul's, Ebee and Yuki ordered but i'm sure they did ordered something that taste good since we all ate there instead of eating the meal at home. The plan was to go to McDonald to get something to eat and go home afterwords but instead we ended up eating the meal there while busy cit chatting. We all went home around 11pm last night. As soon as i got back home, went straight to my bathroom, to wash my teeth and face, right after that i went to sleep around 11.30pm. I was so EXHAUSTED.

This morning i woke up a bit late after a long day i had yesterday. Luckily this morning i wasn't driving. I had asked my Uncle to fetch me up since we both are working in the same clinic. So he did fetch me this morning around 7am. We arrived to the hospital a bit late thanks to the damn traffic. Today's traffic was awful with the long ques, the un-cooperative drivers etc. Malas ku kan becakap nyata org Brunei masa ani, they are so mean in the morning, why is it ah? Stress with their job i assumed? Once we arrived to the clinic, the clinic was already packed with people, the clinic was already busy with patient appointments.

Without wasting any more time, i headed straight to work. Today, i'll be Mr Phillip intern, helping him with all of his patients. Today also, he taught me all about the spine. Since i'am going to have my final exam soon, and spinal cord is one of the topic that are going to come out, i did listen and dot down what he had explained and i also did managed some of the questions that's been asked. We go on and on from the morning till 4.30pm and it's time for us to go home. Me and my uncle left the hospital around 4.45pm, we finally reached home around 5pm, i changed my cloth and went straight to bed. Woke up around 7pm and start updating the blog.

Tomorrow i'll be with DR. Mr Phillip again, can't wait what is he going to teach me for tomorrow.

With Love: Amirul

"Majlis Balik Tujuh Hari"

Majlis balik tujuh hari is a tradition that’s been practised here in Brunei for many-many years now, where the bride have to follow the groom go back home to his home town. The bride’s family are needed to escort the newlyweds travel.

That's the event that me and my mom went for today. We left the house around 9.30am this morning looking sharp, arrived at the bride’s house right on time, which was exactly 10am. Once we get there, a few of my closest family members had arrived much earlier than me. But i don’t care, yg important me and my mom arrived safely. (There is no point in a hurry if end up getting hurt, right?) Once we got inside the house, we were told to have a short meal before leaving to K.B, such a lucky charm eh, cause i was really hungry this morning, i didn’t had my breakfast.. so i just ate the meal. The meal was AWESOME, gila nymana kali ah... but i didn’t eat much, takut ku sakit parut...payah karang plang dalam bus, mana ku mengunjar toilet.

Right after finishing our delighted meal and everybody had arrived, it’s time for us to get going, the bride’s family rent two massive buses to transport all of us to K.B except for the newlyweds, the newlyweds are being transported by their owned car. I sat together with my fello cousins Zulhelmi, Izzah, Atul, Comel, Dillah, together with some of my other relative who i don’t really know their names. Sorry guys but i do admit, the bus ride was fun despite some of us felt a sleep on our way to K.B. I managed to take a few pictures from the event.






We arrived in K.B around 1pm, spent two hours there eating and taking a few pictures with the newlyweds, went back home around 2.30pm. At first most of us thought that we're going straight back home but there's a suprices for us where we had a quick stopped at Kuala Belait main town. We stopped just because we wanted to check out the town and its enviroment. From my point of view, the town is improving but not that improve yet... but i'm sure the goverment is doing all they can to improve the quality of the town. I'm not saying that the town is bad or anything like that, it's just it doesn't exceed some of Bruneian's own expectation since Kuala Belait is Brunei's second CBD but i'am not going to command anything on that.

Right after a quick detour around Kuala Belait town, we went straight back home to B.S.B, we're all were just exhausted where i witness most of us felt a sleep on the our way back home. (including my self). We arrived in B.S.B around 4.30pm, hang out at my cousin's house for a few minutes and left around 5pm. While we're on our way back home, my mom had asked me to make a quick stop at one of her boutique to pick up her "Baju Kurung" for my cousin up coming wedding lagi this coming Sunday. Since, my mom were sooo exhausted, she asked me to buy "Nasi Ayam" from the restaurant near to my house. Right after that, i brought my mom to see my friends Garage Sale, i saw most of my friends there, Wafy, Mas, Sabri, Aju, Sarah, Salwana, Hjh Fiqah, Hj Mazran etc. They're making a lot of money today, bah guys bila kamu belanja aku?

That would be all for today.

P/S: K.B stan for Kuala Belait & B.S.B stan for Bandar Seri Begawan

With Love: Amirul

Exam..Exam and Exam

Yes, my final year one examination is coming soon, very much sooner than i expected it to be. Today was our first day back to the college after two weeks working as intern in each ward that we're assigned to. Everybody was just glad to be back, i think we're just glad to be back, it's been months that we left the college for our internship period, i think we just really misses the college enviroment. And also, we do miss our beloved tutors. Their part of our big..big family.. Today also was the day where we have to submit our case study assignment which went very "kelam kabut" i must say, since everybody have to go back home and reprint the assignment again. Why? Because most of us did so many errors that needed editing, kalau mahu mark tinggi better edit balik.. (including my self). I went back home together with my fello colleague Haziq and Zul's. They also needed to reprint their assignment paper due to tons of errors. Gosh. It was very hectic this moring with all the chaos.

Today was also the collecting day i assumed, where i as the attandance representative, have to collect all of the students internship attandance sheet. Apa nda kelam kabut ku cus i have to deal with submitting both assignment and attandance to different tutors. Tutor kami ani payah kan di cari, ulang-alik ku tadi guys mengunjar dengan paper-paper my entire classmate. barat kali ah.. kepisan eh.. I really need an assistance eh.. next time when i have to submit assignments paper, or anything, i better bring some help. hehe :P

Today also, we were given a short briefing regarding our end of year examination where we have to pass in order to continue studying for the next semester. Failing is not an option. you can fail the exam for once, but if u fail it twice, you're gonna have to leave. Automatically, they'll kick you out from the programe. Shit right? but hey.. that's the rules... i have nothing against it. But i, my self are being thankful to our tutor Cikgu Liew Moi for taking a time off and teaching us or should i say giving us a lot of tips on how to answer the questions. Not only that, she also give us a list of the possiable questions that might come out on the exam. We'll be sitting for two different paper which are Life Science (Anatomy & Physiology ) and Care of Patient. You might think "alah, apa jua dua subject saja, senang kali ah pass" i here by would like to declare that "YOU'RE WRONG".



Yes, we only have two papers but these two paper have a lof of branches inside it, especially The Care of Patient. Want to know the list? Here it is:



Anatomy & Physiology (Life Science) for semester one & semester two.

1. Cardiovascular system (Cardiology)


2. Respitoary system


3. Circulatory system (Cardiology)


4. Digestive system (Peristalysis)


5. Lymphatic system


6. Muscular system


7. Reproductive system


8. Endrocrine system (Neurology)


9. Central Nervous system (Neurology)


10. The Anatomy & Physiology of The Eye & Eye.

6 or 8 of these major topics will be coming out for our final year one examination. The most important parts of these topics are to be able to memorise all the location of the organs, the functions of the organs, what hormons does it produces, what are the possiable dieases of each organs involve.

Care of patient include 3 different subject which are Health Promotion, Nutritions and Patient Care it self.. I don't really know on how is the question is going to be like, but i do know what are the topics that might come out.

1. Activities of daily living


2. Communiction


3. Infection of cross infection


4. Inflammation process/wound


5. Mycardial Infection


6. Constipation


7. Pain Management


8. Intestinal Obstruction


9. Jaundice


10. Colorectal Cancer


11. Immobility

The most important thing for this particular subjact is to be able to memorise all of the definitation for each diease, the type of diease, the diagnosis of the diease, the investigation needed for the diease, the medication for the diease, and the health education for the dieases.

In order to pass for the exam is to PASS both papers. Failing one of the papers means you fail your final exam already, you're gonna have to retake the exam again, you're only given time 2 trial attemp to pass the exam. Failing for the third time, you know what it means already. So.. I'm gonna have to work really hard to pass. Wish me luck guys.

We'll be having a picnic bash tomorrow from 10am, the payment is only $10 per head. I'm gonna try to come tomorrow if i still can make it cause i have to go to Kuala Belait for my cousin majlis balik 7 hari, where we have to send the newlyweds back to groom's home town. Hopefuly sempatlah ku datang besuk, guys tinggali ku makanan ah..

With Love: Amirul

Farewell Neuro..I'am going to miss you..

Yesterday was my last day doing my internship in ward 9, so far, i enjoy working in Neuro area where i've got to practised tons of medical procedures and diagnosis. huh, i also would like to thank Dr Selvem, Dr Bijorx for helping me understand on how does the brain really works and what is the function of the spinal cord. huh, to tell you the truth, i still don't really understand the function of our spinal cord, together with the Anatomy & Physiology. Trust me, Anatomy & Physiology is hard.. here's a sample what i have to deal with...

Brain Anatomy- Internal Structures

The central nervous system consists of the brain and spinal cord. The peripheral nervous system is made up of the nerves which connect the brain and spinal cord with the rest of the body. The principal parts of the brain are the cerebrum, brainstem, diencephalon, and cerebellum. The cerebrum is made of both white matter and grey matter. The surface of the cerebrum (the cortex) is composed of a thin layer of gray matter (nerve cell bodies), underneath which are the white matter tracts (myelinated nerve cell axons).The diencephalon consists of the thalmus and hypothalamus.The brainstem is the lowest part of the brain just above the spinal cord.

It consists of the midbrain, pons and medulla. It controls many of the basic involuntary body functions necessary for life, such as breathing, sleeping and rate of heartbeat.It is in the medulla where the left and right white matter tracts to and from the brain cross over. Nerve impulses to and from the left side of the body are processed in the right side of the brain, while right side body impulses are processed in the left.

This is why an injury in the left side of the brain such as a stroke, creates symptoms (loss of sensation, paralysis) on the right side of the body.The reticular formation is a complex network of nerve cell fibers. It is involved with determining our level of wakefulness and sleep.

THE SPINAL CORD

Why Our Spinal Cord is SOOOOO IMPORTANT?

That will be my everyday subject.. yes it is difficult but i still love studying neurology.. i just love it. This monday i will be starting my internship in Ortho Clinic for a week, right after that, i'll be doing an internship in Cardio Clinic.

With that, Farewell Neuro, i'am going to miss you..

With Love: Amirul

The Perfect Friend?

Dear my friend,
You have known me in good and bad times,
You have seen me when i was happy and when i'm was sad.

You have lisent to me,
When i said i was intelligent or when i talked nonsence,
You used to be there for me but why now you hurt me?
We had our fun during the days, and forsure we have been misrable before.

You have watched me laugh and cry,
You have understood me when i knew what i was doing and when i made mistakes.
All i wanna do was to say to "Hai" and see how were you doing infront of your colleague,
But instead of making you happy, i was such an embrassement for you,
With that, i apologise sincerly from deep inside my heart.

You've should've told me that i'am an embrassement for you,
Though you have sent your apology and i do accept them sincerly but,
I'am just too hurt by what you did to me.
For the sake of you and your own friends, i'm walking away with a heartbreak.

I would like to say Thank You for believing in me and supporting me back in the days when we were close friends and for always being there to share thoughts together with the one who you embrasses to be friends with.

With Love: Amirul

Al-Fatihah

This morning i found out that one of my relative had past away. She was really close to my heart, helping me though tough phraces etc, i'am so going to miss her so much. I still couldn't believe that she's gone already, i kept on thinking that she's still around in this world. She was admitted in Critical Care Unit (CCU) for a heart failure but they managed to stable her but suddently her kidney starts to disfunctioning where she's going have be transfer in from CCU to MICU (Medical Intersive Care Unit). I must say, as a Medical student, once a patient is transfer in from one critical unit to a very intensive critical care unit, it only mean one thing, the chances of recovery is only 5-10%. From that, i already knew that she's going have to fight like hell if she want to survive.



But unfortunately she didn't make it, i guess its okey cause she had suffer enough with all the tubing around her body, with all the medical activity around her, i bet it is soo stressful for her body to catch up. Plus, No medicine in the world could save you if the one who created all of us wants you back.



With that all, i would like to close this session as respect and tribute for her, and for all of my muslims readers, let's baca Al-Fatihah for her beramai-ramai.

AL-FATIHAH

With Love: Amirul

Walking away

Due to recent incident, i have decided to walk away from any possiable heartbreak. I'd just couldn't stand being hurt over and over again. Why does it have to be me who end up hurting? All i ever wanted was to have someone who could be there for me but lately, i'm being hurt again and again and again. I'm through getting hurt by the people whom i used to be close with. From now on, i'm gonna be all alone eventhough it suck, but its for the best. No one could get hurt this way eventhough deep down in my heart. I'm going to miss the old me.

Why you asked? why am i changing from a cheerful and happy person to such a deep dark, twisted, quiet type of person?

I highly recommand you to scroll down and read my recent posts, you should be able to understand or got a clue on what i'm going through all alone.

My evolution has already started this morning, where i start to eat alone, walk alone, do my own job, no longer gossiping around with my usual friends, i don't even sat or had lunch with them no more. All i'm saying is that i need to be alone, no more hurting me emotionally. I'm though with all this crap.

I have something to share with you guys, last night, one of former best friend text me on my msn, asking weather i'am mad at him or not, i said "no, i'm not mad but i do admit that i'am hurt by what you did to me" he responded "nah, pls don't be like this, this isn't my intention at all, can we forget all about this and start all over, we've just known each but i feel like we've known each other for ages and i'am really sorry if i hurt you" To tell you the truth, I do appreciate his apology but i just can't take it no more plus since i have to jaga hati certain pihak, i think it is the best for him and his pengucapan friends that i walk away. I don't want to be that guy who embarrasses their own friend infront of their other friends.. (know what i mean?)

He tried to win my friendship back but i kept on walking away, lastly i said to him, "this is for the best for you and your friends, enjoy it, plus, somebody have to get hurt and i choose my self than letting someone else take the fault. For me, if his happy with his friends, i'm also happy even though truthfully i'am deeply hurt. I know i scarifies alot but i do hope it's all worth it.

With Love: Amirul

"Majlis Bersanding"

I arrived a bit late for the event but alhamdulilah i still managed to come despite i have to work this morning but luckily i'm able to take a permission out from work. The ceremony started around 11.45am where all the guest starts to arrived. Here are some of the photos i've took from the event, i apologise for not being able to take as many pictures as possible since i was soooo damn busy this morning. God, being a close relative for the bride is quite busy, i wonder if it's the groom, how would it be like ah? hem.. *thinking*.. ah, forget it.. here are some of the photos.

The Groom & The Bride Duduk Bersanding

The Bride's Father Berziarah With All The Male Guest, Same Goes With The Bride's Mother For The Female Guest.

The Groom Had Arrived From Kuala Belait, Entering The Main Enterance.

The Groom's Family, I apologise for not able to take the Bride's with her family but i'll be posting it as soon as i receive if from my cousin, i had asked her earlier to send me the photo.

Fadillah & Amirul

I couldn't take a lot of picture during the event since i have to get back to work but i'll be posting as many pictures as possiable, once i have recieve an e-mail from my cousin. I had asked her to send me all of the pictures taken from the event. That would be all for today, bye. :) I do enjoy my self today but my wound is still bleeding.

With Love: Amirul

"Majlis malam berbadak"

I arrived early at the event, around 7pm, starts chilling out with my fello cousins.. there's a lot of catching up i assumed. We haven't meet each other for a long time. I had a blast despite i'am still hurting. Here are some of the photos i've took from the event.

The Main Enterance

The Alter

The Bride

Tujuk Bedak Perwarna

Izzah, Zulhelmi & Amirul

Izzatul & Amirul

Amirul & Fadillah

Amirul, Fadillah & Atul

Mau Rasa Jadi Raja Sehari

Alter EGO

Alright, that would be all, i'll post the "Majlis Bersanding" photos right after the ceremony finish. Plus, i apologise for the low quality of some of these picture, i'm only using my Nokia N80 camera phone therefore, the quality is a bit poor, i somehow forgot to bring my shockwave digital camera, selalu saya lupa.. aiyo..

With Love: Amirul

Moody & hurt

I'am such in a bad mood today, i woke up this morning with a negativity around me, with all the annoying music, text messages that i received through out the night, i can't even slept well. I hate this, all i needed was a nice long sleep, so that i can relax my mind and woke up with feeling energetic & positivity.

It all started last night when i asked one of my closes friends, why doesn't he want to layan me whenever his colleague is around? & did i embarrassed him somehow? he answered me "yeah, you kinda did, but it's okey" then i asked him, what was it that i did that makes him embarrasses of being my friend?, he replied me "it's just, you know my friends pengucapan, and it's hard for me to be seen being friends with you" i was sooo hurt when he said that, again i apologise. I have come to a conclusion where for some people, image is everything.

He tried to explain the situation but i just kept on ignoring him, all i said was, "i understand the position that you're in and i apologise for any inconvenience" he said, "bukan niatku kan buat kau terluka or jauh hati or ask you to aviod me, NO!" that was his last message to me, i just ignore all the explanation he made. For me, if you want to be friends with that person, you're gonna have to accept the goods inside that person together with his flaws. I assumed he only can accept me for my goods and not my flaws. I guess, these days, people who have flaws, people like me, are just troublesome and full of shameness for some people to get to know.

As i said on my previous post, you think you know all about the someone, the truth is that you don't, and unfortunately you're gonna have to live with all the pain that is cause by that person who you consider as your friend.

Tonight, i'll be going with my mom for my cousin's wedding ceremony, Mlm bebadak nya org Brunei, so, all details and photos will be post tomorrow. I hope my mood would change to happy mood so that i can at least some fun though i'am deeply hurt.

P/S: SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU TO HJH IZZATUL NADIA & ZAIRUL

With Love: Amirul

Happy mother's day

I hereby would like to say Happy Mother's day to all you mother's out there with the message, thank you for all of your unlimited love, thoughts and had raise us (the children's) without any regrets or complain on how tough we can be to you. I must say, being a mother is not an easy task especially when your a single mother like my mother. With that, there's nothing in this world can top on what you do, for all of your kindness,patience,passion, dedication,commitment and determination on raising a child.

Message to my mother:

Mom, i know i can be a pain in the ass sometime but i do admit that i love you to death, i know that i can be a disappointment to you sometime and i'am really sorry for letting you down. Letting you down is the one thing that i don't want to do but sometime it just happens without me noticing it. Therefore, i apologise. Making you happy means the world to me and i really hope that i can be one of those kids who made their mother's happy by achieving such an accomplishment. An accomplishment that you could be proud off whenever people mention about your beloved son.

For you Mom:

She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free,

Catching me in places that I know I shouldn't be,

Every other day I crossed the line,

I didn't mean to be so bad,

I never thought you would become the friend I never had.

Back then I didn't know why,

why you were misunderstood,

So now I see through your eyes,

all that you did was love..

Mama I love you, Mama I care,

Mama I love you, Mama my friend,

You're my friend.

I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now,

Every little thing you said and did was right for me,

I had a lot of time to think about,about the way I used to be,

Never had a sense of my responsibility.

Back then I didn't know why,

why you were misunderstood,

So now I see through your eyes,

all that you did was love..

But now I'm sure I know why,

why you were misunderstood,

So now I see through your eyes,

all I can give you is love....

In love in you, in love in meand love is true and guaranteed.

Love: Amirul

Looks can be deceiving

Today, i had recieved so many forward messages from my friends and closes family members, but there this one e-mail which was sent my cousin Izzah_6464, called "Most Beautiful". At first when i saw the pictures in the e-mail, all i can think of is "Wah, lawanya awek ni, kenapa lah tak ada awek yg gorgeous like her here in Brunei, meilih air liur para lelaki yang bermata keranjang... Oh.. most men are, but i'm hoping that i'm NOT one of those mens. Want to see the girl that i'm talking about? Here she is................ anyway, she's from Thailand.

But guys, to tell you the truth, she's actually a GUY bah, who won the Miss Transvestite contest in Thailand, a competation where all drag queens who had become a pure lady with a perfect skin and had undergo tons of plastic surgery, and fortunately this is one of The Best result for those plastic surgons have done, and guys, this guy in the picture even have remove his gentile area and changing it to a female, i can't really remember what is the name of the surgery but for sure this type of surgery does cost a lot. But in Thailand, surgery can be done at a very low price, luckly them. And i must say, this people, does know best on how to look good, don't you agree with me?

With Love: Amirul

Going through tough phraces

Everytime, when you think you know all about that somebody that you're close with, but the truth is, you don't even know the truth about the person who you think that you knew. You might think that you know everything there is about the person who are close to you, guess what, ask you self again because sometime the truth hurts more than you think.

Yes, you can just live in a denial lifestyle but, it's not going to help you in anyway other than making it worst cause you're gonna have to kept on making lies everytime the truth is coming out from the closet that you used to hide them. Trust me, the truth would eventually came out although you're always get blame and labelled as the bad guy all the time. The bad guy who are just making the point and telling what there is that need to be told.

All i'm saying, in order to be close with that person, don't just assume that you know them already right after knowing each other for a couple of months. Even married couple who's been married for ages does have something to hide just to protect the their perfect image. Deep inside, who knows but... again all i have to say to whoever considering me as the usual bad guy is this:

Well I thought I knew you,
Thinking that you were true,
Guess I, I couldn't trust you no more...
Called your bluff???
Time is up Cause I've had enough... please lah.. no more explaination needed...
You were there by my side
Always down for the ride
But your joyride just came down in flames
Cause your deeds sold me out in shame
After all of the stealing, your cheating
You probably think , that I hold resentment for you?
But... you're wrong
Cause if it wasn't for all that...
You tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I'am to pull through
So I wanna say "Thank You"

Why? It's Because...........................

Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
Never saw it coming, all of your backstabbing
Just so you could cash in on my good thing??
Before I realized your game, i heard your going round, playing as the victim now? while i'm the one who is hurt by you?
But don't even begin feeling i'm the one to blame?
Cause you dug your own grave, after all of the fights and the lies?
Guess you wanted to harm me but,
That won't work any more........
No more... it's over......................

P/S : Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture, i wouldn't know how to be this way now & never back down, so I wanna say Thank You.

With Love: Amirul

EXHAUSTION

First & foremost, i would like to apologise for not updating this blog yesterday. It's not that i don't want to update this blog yesterday, it's just that i was sooooo exhausted yesterday. I don't really know why was i that exhausted, i didn't do much in the morning other than just performing an STO (Suture To Open/Remove). It was an easy task but since i have a very low vision, unfortunately it was really hard for me to see the sutures.. but luckily i managed to complete the procedure with the help of my senior, thanks kak Aimi.. i owed you.. anyway, yesterday was my first day back being as an intern in Ward 9, an Endocrine, Neuro and Oral Maxillo Facial surgical ward. Want to look pretty? Come and meet us.. ehhe :P


Right after i finished doing the procedure, seen a few patient, there's nothing left for me to do.. so i just gone through a few of the patient medical records, trying to look for an interesting case that could make an interesting case study but unfortunately there's nothing suitable for me therefore, i'm gonna stick with my old case study then. Plus, i've done 40% of it already, sayang jua kalau kan changed to a new case. Furthermore the date line is coming soon.. this 15th May..Gosh, time is running quickly ah..

Me and my fello colleague, Marul, Uncle Ahmad and Farinah, left the hospital quite early and gone home, once i've reached home, the exhausted hit, i took a shower, check my e-mail, went
to bed and woke up around 10pm.. *gosh* nyaman tido ku eh.. but i didn't get off from bed, i just continued sleeping balik ja.. ahaha.. kalatzzz mata saya boi..


I woke up late this morning even though i had such a long sleep but still i woke up late, can u believed that.. haiya.. i musta been really tired yesterday.. Rushly i prepare my self to get to work and drove to the hospital around 120km/hr but sadly i still couldn't get there right on time due to the crazy traffic. Damn it.. I hate this..better set my alarm clock around 5.45am kali ah? Plus parking lagi jauh.. eish.. inda saya suka eh....


I arrived at work around 7.15am, thinking that i'aaaammmmm sooooo late for my second day being an intern but thankfuly i'm not, both uncle Ahmad and Marul are much more late than i am. Fuh.. what a relief there.. don't you think? but sadly i hadn't been able to catch up on the Night report.. (i'am being a very bad person today). Right after the reports are being forward to the morning staff, we began to do our morning care.. wait, there's no morning care in ward 9, yay us... ada plang, my relative si Jali, the one with the Craniotomy but ia MRSA (Methicillin Resistant Staphylococcus Aureus) therefore all interns are NOT allow to do any medical procedure on him. I felt really bad but i have to obey the rules if i want to stay out of trouble. Such a dilemma right?


Nothing much going on today except bermain telephone with my colleague, we called each other using the ward telephone persuading to be in another service, for an example "Hello, Ward 8, dari Radiology, ada medical student sana namanya ain?" then we hang up right after the real person answered the phone, but then they balas wah.. so it went on for 15 minutes or so lah.. balas membalas phone call ah, we called each ward starting from Ward 4,6,7,8,11,19,20,21 and22.. haha.. buang boring banar jua sudah tu tadi kami ah.. plus it was almost noon.. lapar yo.. belum lunch kali ah..


I finally had my lunch tadi with Hunnie, Farinah, followed by Ain, Kak Zu and ramai lagi lah but i didn't stayed long, have to go to the toilet, stomach ache, after melabur saham, i went straight to the ward and be able to sent a patient to the Operating Therater for a Nasal Fixiation. I went home right after i sent the patient the O.T, arrived home around 2.30pm, took a short shower, check on my e-mail, read some of of friends blogs, went to sleep, hoping to woke up around 8pm later tonight, cause i have a thing for tonight with the one that i love.. wish me the best of luck okey..


With Love: Amirul

Cruising with my mom

Today i woke up pretty early around 9am or so, i wasn't planing on getting up that early but i have to since my bro text me earlier notifying me that he'll be stoping by for today, to check on a few stuff. Honestly, i didn't expect him to drop by early in the morning, i didn't want to get off from bed at first but i kinda have to since he won't stop bothering me.. shit eh, baru jua kan have a nice long napping time.

I don't have any idea why is he so in a hectic mood lately, turns out, he wanted to buy a brand new laptop and wanted my opinion, he doesn't know much all about this IT thing, so he asked me give him some ideas on what type of laptop he should be getting. I did gave him a few good suggestion on some great brand out there like Apple, HP, DELL or NEC but never ACER. ACER is good but i don't recommend it as one of the best choices in terms of quality but in terms of price, yes, it is much more cheaper than the other brand that i'd mentioned.

In the end, he still couldn't make the decision,he tried to get me into it but i refused to, this is up to him, i can only give him a good recommendation, the decision have to be made by himself since his the one who's going to pay for it.. not me.. ehehehe, i'm not trying to be selfish here BUT it's his money, he should the one who decide. But if it's up to me, for sure i'm gonna get the brand new MacBook from Apple, the one that my friend TIKAH just bought. Girl, i hereby would like to admit, i'am jealous of you. hahaha :P Right after my brother left, i started to clean my room, together with the family room, and living room, nada kan ku buat, so i clean lah when ever i don't have anything to do. Just to ease my boredom and waste my free time. Lurus jua tu, daripada memalui, batter ku clean my own house, bersih jua.. nda ja?

Once i finished cleaning my house, my mom had asked me to accompany her to buy some gosery stuff, i agreed, plus, i don't have to stay home on a Sunday morning right? We didn't go far, we just shop d GIANT, i was so pleased with traffic this morning, nda ramai orang as it used to, may be pasal pagi masih atu kali. Never mind lah, malas mau fikir but i'am happy though for not having to find a parking, banyak parking masih... ehehe seronok saya eh.. Before me and my mom went shopping, we ate d food court nya ah, masyallah, ramai eh.. at first i disagree with my mom to have our lunch there cause of the food. The food was just not that good, but mau nda mau.. redah aje (minjam tagline Nadia AF6) japz, ehehe :p, i ordered a kolo mee and my mom ordered a fried chicken rice, both taste like CRAP!!! nda ku mau makan d food court nya lagi eh.. sampai bila-bila, even my mom pun agree with me.. the food tasted like CRAP!! what a waste of money saja paying $10 bucks for a crappy meal.

We didn't finished our meal, left the table, went straight to the GIANT main supermarket, took everything that we needed, and left right away after we pay for the stuff. Total spending? haha i won't be telling you that.. family privacy.. sorry.. Once we arrived home, start unpacking the gosery and arranging it to the kitchen cabinet, once we finished, i went to my room and took a shower again, it was hot as usual.. why is it so damn hot in Brunei ani kan.. Right after i finished my shower, i turned on my computer, check on my e-mails and went back to sleep.. i guess that i'm just exhausted.

With Love: Amirul

The long wait

I woke up late this morning, kind of not in that examination mood and yes, today was my practical exam. I did prepare my self with all the possibilities of what type of question yang bakal keluar but i can't say anything except hoping for the best. We were divided into 2 different group, group A and group B and unfortunately i'm in group B. Why am i sad? It's because group A is going to do their practical exam in the morning while us (group B) is schedule to do the exam around 10am this morning. Bukan plang kami start exam around 10am, all candidate for each group are not allowed to see each other while the exam is in progress. Those yang sudah exam and belum will be saperated in a different room to make sure that those candidate yang sudah exam won't be exposing the question yang kana keluarkan. Smart move right? plus, handphone gi kana berkas tu.. cemana kan communicate ni? aiyo..


Group B which was di anggotai oleh me myself, Uncle Ahmad, Ain, Maida, Ak Ismail, Basil, Daniel, Elyceca, Eza, Zahir, Ebee, Kamarul, Shahrol, Mohiddin and Haziq. The second session for the practical exam started with the first group entering the exam room around 11am this morning, we're all were freaking out although we have done this before but the nerve is still there. Anyway, the first group that was Haziq, Shahrol, Mohiddin, Kamarul and Ebee. I can't say how they felt before the exam but i'am pretty sure that they are as scared as the rest of us (yg belum exam lah, yang sudah, adui, nyaman sudah makan dorg di kantin, jubo bnr eh!) The exam session for each group is around 30 minutes, each medical procedures took 5 minutes and with 5 stations are set and 5 students doing it at the same time separately, the total time is 30 minutes for each group but this time it took much long than it used to. I don't really know why, may be it's because the examiner and models are taking a short break or belum lagi prepare barang utk the exam.


It was 11.45am, finally the first group finished the exam and keluar dari examination room, the second group goes in which was Zahir, Daniel, Eza, Elyceca and Basil. this time, yes it only took 30 minutes for that group to finish their session but while waiting, me, Uncle Ahmad, Ain, Maida, and Ak Ismail just sat all together and starts to crack some jokes and scewring around with each other except with Maida, i don't really like her being in my group. Personal reason, no need to know therefore i just ignore lah.. malas tah ku ingau.. Anyway, the session become much more fun when Ak Ismail turned on his mp3 player and played this really nostalgic song by Lionel Richie - Killing Me Softly. Quite suitable situation to be playing such a song since waiting is killing us softly. GoD, i hate waiting, anxious ku oleh nya, plus kami lagi lapar, be-music sudah parut masing-masing kelaparan, mati, takut ku collapes during the exam. Trying to minimize the anixety rate within us, aku mulakan lah groove to the song followed by everyone else.. wah.. so much fun tadi, mcm bukan kan exam wah rasanya..

Sambil Menunggu

It was 12.30pm, finally it's our turn, we started going to the exam room and my nerve is starting to get into me. Damn it, i hate this, i started with station 2, Intravenous Infusion, the bell rang, and my nerve got me, i forgot everything, my therory just lesap from my head, but luckly i managed to remembered to collect and prepare all the items need except for the IV stand, shit kelupahan ku tadi, the examiner was Cikgu Agong, his very nice but if jadi examiner, his a butt. Gila strick kali ia ah.. mati eh.. shit.. tah banar eh.. everything is falling apart in that station but i did gather all of the equiptment needed for the procedure except for the IV stand. I did managed to answer all the question asked by the examiner despite ada gagap sikit..

Station 2 - I.O chart, this station wasn't hard, just some calculation but senang jua fail if salah calculation and i really hope my calculation is correct.

Station 3 - Medication Administration, quite an easy task for me since i practiced this procedure during my clinical internship d ward. I think i did alright for this station, hope i could pass this one too.

Station 4 - Dressing & STO, Alhamdulilah, i managed to this procedure within' 5 minutes, the examiner was Cikgu Sandy, one of my favorite teacher, i did managed to maintain the saterility and the aspetic technique of the procedure. Plus, i somehow over look my marking paper while Techer Sandy totaling my score.

Station 5 the last station - Oxygen Therapy, this one i can say that i did 50-50 cause i'm just not sure on how well i did this procedure but i did managed to answer all of the questions given to me by the examiner, i did mentioned all the safety percautions and what type of patient that requires O2 therapy.

Despite it all, i had such a great time eventhough it was a hard day for me. I left as soon as the exam is over. Once i arrived home, i took a short shower cause i was sweating tadi, mati eh it was really hot tadi when i left the college. Right after i took my shower, had my lunch, check my e-mail and went straight to bed, Woke up at 7pm and tarus update this blog. :)

With Love: Amirul